A year ago I wrote this post as a letter to future myself instead of writing goals for 2019. I didn’t open it for a year, so it was so funny for me to read it now. I was expecting to achieve so many things and definitely I could not foresee everything.
“If everything went according to the plan, now you’re chilling in Sirvintos with your family, your Georgian cat and thinking about all that Christmas/New Year celebration weight you gain. ”
I am in Sirvintos now and chilling, but without my Georgian cat. Because of some document issues I had to leave Meile in Georgia. also I don’t think about weight. This year I finally started to care so less about it. Finally!
“You’ve had doubts when year started, about which place to call home and where you feel the best, but now you finally figured that out. I know that whatever decision you made, it was the right one.”
I am in Lithuania already for 2 months, taking quite a break from Georgia, because I had doubts about where I want to settle down. I am so happy that finally I figure that out and that makes me feel more confident about steps I have to take now.
“You got to spend time outside in one of the most beautiful places on earth and you traveled to 50 countries. 1/4 from all countries of this world!…. In 2019, you had trips with your sisters…)
I didn’t reached magic 50, but 55! 19 flights. ✈ Italy, San Marino, Vatican, Portugal, Spain (with my sisters!)Andorra, Armeniax4, UK, Switzerland, Lichtenstein, Poland, Russia, Denmark! From those even 8 countries for first time!!! Meanwhile right now climbing trees in Sirvintos, in my cute childhood town, and planing my next adventures which is in 11 days. Some solo travel experience and also again adventure with sisters!
“Your company is growing and you are growing together with it. In 2019, you became incredible tour operator/guide in Armenia and even more confident about how great you are in what you are doing. …. You are smart and saving money for future home and as well learning how to unclutter yourself from too many possessions you have.”
YES! It’s growing. Maybe I didn’t became incredible guide in Armenia, but definitely improved so much and looking forward go continue. Also I reached all the 2019 goals in savings, but still have to learn to get uncluttered.
“You are in the best shape of your life so far! You have healthy habits and you nourish your body as your soul…”
I am in the best shape of my life, because I FINALLY accepted my body and started to be so more positive about who I am and not let toxic ideas to get in my head. After more than one and a half decade of dieting and healing from really bad relationship with food, I finally learnt that I am awesome. And scale number doesn’t measure my worth. So I threw it away. I haven’t weighted myself almost a year already and you know what? I didn’t really gain or lost and I don’t have anymore that guilt feeling after eating chips or stupid ideas about “let’s skip a meal”. And obviously I feel so much confident about my appearance.
“You continue loving your friends, growing together with them, supporting in the big life events. You spend time bonding with your family and appreciating who they are. Your family became so close to you and now coming back to Lithuania feels so good. It’s your sanctuary.”
Yes. This year I spent more quality time with my family than ever before. I am so happy, I can finally say, that I have good relationship with my family.
“And as you’re continue to age, you’re continue to get more awesome. You’ve got time, for everything you dream about now and you will dream in the future. You’re on your way to make all of your dreams come true. You pushed your limits, even you was afraid, but still stepped out of the comfort zone and look what have you done! This year was freaking forking amazing! And remember that this current version of yourself loves you. And that’s not going to change.
Everything that has happened has lead you to this moment. Don’t change a thing. Everything worked out exactly as it should be. All the puzzle pieces fit, all the paths make sense. All the people were meant to be. All the successes and failures and heartwarming and heartbreaking moments were all worth it. No regrets. You were and are and have been and always will be yourself, and that’s what matters above all.”
Oh Yeah! This year I dared to climb on the horse, slept on the tent on Gomis mountain, walked 100 km, met a soulmate and told someone “I love you”.
I wrote that in order of scariness if you wonder.
A year ago I wrote quite unbelievable goals about how I will do handstand right now or speak Armenian, however I believe that dreaming big means you make bigger than you goals and try do your best to achieve them. That makes you grow!
This year was about inner growth and doing big steps to make myself be open to love and accept people in my life. And even learn how to not overreact if it doesn’t work.
I am getting more mature and I am loving it! I am sure everything will be okay even if things do not go us planned. Just trusting that someone up there has better plan for me, makes me calm down and just open my heart for the World.